很生气。看了同学的日志的第一段。是这样：
这几天发生的事，就像莫拉克过境，好像发生了很多事，又好像什么都没有发生。感动了自己也感动了别人，但又好像这种事情实在是没什么意义。花花的预言是：一开始豪言壮语，后来就不言不语了。果然应验。花花的评价是：个毛个人，哪个都不肯扎落的。果然精辟。这件事情让我深刻感到一个人的阅历，果然是由岁月堆积起来的。
同学不明白有些人的意见能影响未来，不仅仅是意见。负面预言一开始弄得你没有信心，负面结果自然会相应。
不是说他人没错。只是同学如此盲目歌颂这种毫无逻辑的预言的行为，让我想敲桌子。
半年前那一晚上就想到这一刻迟早会过来的。
就不说该躲、不该躲了，反正是躲不过的。用古老先生最喜欢的比喻，不管多么害羞、与世隔绝的闺房中的少女，总有一天都还会出嫁的。人生有有些东西就是必然的。
这天终于来了。
当在面书上看到她的邀请时，马上看了她的生日。
天啊！怎么是天蝎座的！
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面书最大的作用是可以提醒你某某某生日要到了，给你个借口和女生、老板说两句话。一周前我好奇地发现有一个衔接可以看所有人的生日。我从头到尾看了一遍，发现星座还是很妙的。和双子、狮子普遍很有缘份是自然的。奇怪的在于处女和天蝎也不错。人数相比不多，但真的不错。莫非和我上升是巨蟹有关吗？
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过两周要去韩国了。商会的日本朋友说在韩国扔h-bomb很有效。说的我们一老一小会心大笑。这炸弹果然是一个很好的聊天主题。还有什么简单的主题能关联到学校、旅行、酒水和女人呢？
爱若斯对我之前的小冒险不以为然。依她所见，这种情况总没有好结局的。或者被拒绝，或者成功但从此不能安生。毕竟做坏事一次比一次容易。我觉得其实不然。如果我们生下来就和活佛一样有智慧，她是对的，能抢过来的只是花天酒地佛。但我们不是。人在变化，人也终有长大的时候。有些人终有一天会变老实的。
Sara is a kind, nice girl, albeit a little insecure.
She loves food and frozen yogurt. Her voice is sweet and pleasant. She has beautiful shoes.
Lately she has been ignoring me. Once in a while, she would talk to me. Most often she would ignore me, or talk in her sweet but nonchalant voice.
I did not know how much I could hurt others. Now I know. Sara, I am sorry.
Elle once told me I needed to grow up. She was right. Now I know.
You know the story. Girl falls in love with guy when he is unavailable. Then guy falls in love with girl, but by then she is already taken. Guy and girl lament the tricks Time plays on them.
Iris told me a story of missed opportunities several weeks ago. I told her the story of “the Age of Innocence.” We sighed.
Another story is in the making.
And I am in it.
看看表，已经是晚上十点。她和朋友在外边。
终于决定出门买回来一张生日卡片。
回到家打开卡片，看到右边那页上已经打印好了生日快乐。
左边还有空，拿起笔在左页的中间写上了那五个字。
字是斜的，但每一竖都直挺着。觉得还满意。装进信封。从门缝里塞到了她屋子里。
当终于找到了这首歌时，突然发现自己喜欢的不是刀郎版的，而是谭咏麟的。
刀郎忘了刀要快，硬把四分钟的歌磨到气氛中。
歌词他也改的傻傻的，既然舞刀就不该装心软。
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突然想起去年的今天。
想起那遍天的白雪。
想起一个被风衣和围巾裹的紧紧的男生站在麻街边，鼓足勇气，望着一双大眼睛向她表白。
Wendy is a 20-year-old 3rd-year graduate student. She is undoubtedly one smart cookie. But with her girlish face, her petite figure, and her big round eyes, she looks younger than even she is.
For example, last week, when I went with her to a hospital last week, a little boy standing in front of us instantly identified with Wendy. He started a conversation with her, and stated he thought Wendy was five years old. While I was laughing, his mother tried to appease Wendy by saying to the boy: “John, the young lady is much older than you are.” The boy rolled his eyes, thought for a minute, and said reluctantly, “Six?”
So you can appreciate the trouble Wendy may have had trying to get into a club in Vegas for the first time last summer. She had borrowed a passport, but the bouncer was determined not to let her in. “Kid, I’m going to take you to the police station and let them see if you are really of age.” Wendy did not back down. “Take me to the police. I want to go to the police.” The bouncer went speechless, and simply took Wendy out of the line and waved her off.
A year after I founded a startup with 4 guys in a dorm room, things were not looking good. For about half a year, the direction we were headed was unclear, and the the future seemed bleak. One day, It suddenly hit me that I was responsible for the livelihood of dozens of families—not just persons, but families. The thought continued to stress me out. I tried to be brave in front of my coworkers, but still broke down occasionally.
At first I told myself to work hard and fix the problems. But nothing got better. What do you do when you feel the whole world is against you? You emulate 007. Think about it. James Bond was designed to be perfect. When you see a Bond movie, everything is always against him, yet he always triumphs. So my advice to others had been to imagine yourself as James Bond. Do as Bond would do. In short, I applied that advice to myself, but surely enough, that did not work either.
One day my father came to visit me, and I broke down again. He was trying to be a good father, trying his best to be supportive. But what could he say to someone that had tried everything and failed? What was the one thing anyone can say to someone that felt the whole world was against him?
“Have faith.”
